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I’ve been away from Princeton for almost two years… don’t know why, I still cannot leave Princeton behind me… in other words.. I still cannot fully adjust to the new environment. Princeton is so special. Some people say Princeton is oasis, Shangri-la. Some people say Princeton is very un-America. I totally agree with them. It is an ivory tower, secluded from the secular world. In my eyes, no other place can be as good as Princeton.

It’s graduation time again. I have been wondering whether to go back to Princeton again for a long time… On the one hand, lots of my friends will graduate and leave Princeton this year. I don’t know when and where I will meet them ever again in the future… on the other hand, I don’t know how to come back to reality if I ever go back…

About a month ago.. I leant towards not going back… decided to put Princeton down.. The way I did this, as usual, was to go to the other extreme. I told my friends that I would not go back. I would cut my tie with Princeton and be myself… I would Yi4 Dao1 Liang3 Duan4 with Princeton.. Maybe it would be a long time before I go back again… well, so far so good… until…

Last Wednesday… I suddenly heard a sad news… some kind of family emergency… It happened so suddenly and everything was so unexpected. Without hesitation, I immediately booked the plane ticket, packed luggage the next day and at Friday night, I was on the plane back to Princeton… Maybe I meant to go back one more time…

Well, I told myself… it was a perfect closure… I could meet all my friends one more time… and I could drop Princeton once and for all…. nobody or nothing could hold me back this time… well, that’s just my thought… Immediately after I got off dinky station, I liked Princeton. It was soooo familiar. The leaves were sooo green, the light green I could not find in west coast… I got to see all those lovely, beautiful buildings one more time… looking at them… thinking about all the things happened in the past five years… I love Princeton…

I hesitated… I didn’t know whether I should cut the tie… or how to do it… Maybe it’s not time for me to make the decision… maybe I could be more cruel when I’m far far away… As I was hesitating… on my last day at Princeton… my friends brought me a gift, unexpectedly… it was a Princeton tie, a tie with Princeton shield… and a Princeton card… I opened it.. and it said… "Since you have always told us that you wish to break the tie with Princeton, we have decided to get you a tie from Princeton…"… OMG… I did not know what to say… it was sooo special… I wanted to break the tie not because of any bad image from Princeton or something… but because I loved Princeton sooo much… having a Princeton tie at hand, how can I break it?… immediately… I told my friends… no, I would never break the tie…

I won’t break the tie… I will hang it in my closet, with most extensive care… wear it once a while… and be a Princetonian forever… Thank you.. my friends… the tie will never be broken…

很久没有写博客了，主要是没有静下心来。一旦没有心思，什么也写不出来了。昨天晚上做了个梦，年初一晚上呀，说不定对整年都有什么启示呢。这个梦很有趣，就写下来吧。

梦其实很短，也很简单。就是我在梦里遇见几个老美，就随便聊起了天。聊得还挺长，可聊了什么已经忘了。人家是老美嘛，说的英语可是那个地道呀，说的又快，音调又准，用词又丰富，让我佩服得五体投地。可我说的呢？真是和他们有天壤之别，说的又不快，有时候还要想一想。正在想找各地洞钻进去，突然想到，靠，我是在做梦耶。老美说的话也是我说的，可为什么我以老美口气说话就比我以自己口气说话好很多呢？那我的英语究竟是怎样呢？

看来我潜意识里英语还可以。希望我以后说英语就像我梦里老美说的一样好。

hoho… new year wish 😉

Just watched an old movie: S.W.A.T. One of the gun scenes was at the intersection of Hollywood Blvd. and Wilcox Ave. God damn… that’s the exact place I parked my car when I visited Hollywood… No wonder it looked so familar… If it’s NYC or Princeton… I can understand.. coz those are popular places… can’t believe it is such a small place … hollywood…

Someone says this year’s campaign is the worst negative campaign ever. I’m not sure about that. However, it is for sure the worst negative campaign for me. After all, this is the only campaign I followed reasonably closely… hmm… tomorrow is the judgment day… let’s see who’s the winner, who’s the loser…

Do you think it necessary to invest on alternative fuel research? Are you willing to pay an extra 10c per gallon gas for it? Prop 87 may be the most controversial proposition in this mid-term election for Californians.

In a recent airport security test for the screeners of Newark international airport, the screeners stopped 2 out of 22 fake weapons passing the security line… That means the remaining 20 weapons were successfully brought to airplanes… This news interests me in two folds. First, EWR is the airport I’m most familiar with. I’ve been there at least 20 times… so I’m pretty connected to the airport… Secondly… it’s quite a good use of the 10 billion dollars spent in airport security after 9/11… and we have seen its effect… we can now stop two weapons, instead of zero… it is obviously a great first step.. the next thing we need to do is to spend another 100 billion so that we can catch the rest 20 weapons… hmm… I’m really looking forward to it…

Can’t believe I start this topic… I’m sure I will regret it someday… just I can’t resist the temptation to write something down to "comment" the news… I borrowed the title from Jay Leno’s late show… so you can sense some irony from the title alone. well, this topic is all about "news", some are "political news". I just feel so funny where the world is going… It should actually belong to the topic "freestyle". Actually lots of issues can belong to that topic. well, seems I’m now starting more and more topics with no real follow-up contents… hmm… I should make that up…

damn…

– Go out.
– Find topics.
– Bull*.

Before Dan Brown became famous for his best seller Da Vinci Code, he wrote another bestselling mystery novel about Robert Langdon: Angels & Demons. In the novel, Landon and a beautiful lady, Vittoria, follow the "path of illumination" at the night of Papal election, trying to dig out the secrete group illuminati. The path is directed by the statues of angels in churches. However, a "demon" always sits beside the angel, disguising the real path. (Disclaimer: this is not a real plot of the novel. Interested people please click here for the true story.)

However, this topic is not about the novel, nor is it about religion. It’s about mortal human beings. In my opinion, like in many religions, human is the unity of angel and demon (like camerlengo?). Sometimes we are more like angles, sometimes we are not.  So, we may want to tell good from bad, right from wrong, angels from demons. However, we must also realize that the notion of "good", "right", "angel" differs from person to person. It can be best illustrated by the recent head to head "debate" between Chavez and Bush in the United Nations speeches.

This is the topic to express my feelings, about me, about you, about everyone else, in an imprecise manner.