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January 23, 2008

stock market….

Filed under: Economics — Fei @ 11:31 pm

The stock market is so volatile these days… and I have my own thoughts on its direction… although I know the market is unpredictable… any prediction is meant to be wrong… (and especially for an armature like me…) I just want to find a way to laugh at myself…

so here is how I’m going to laugh at myself… and maybe the day is tomorrow…

the stock last Tuesday is at the low side for the next couple of months… the reduction of the overnight interest rate will temporarily boost the market… however, the underline problem is not solved… the inflation may become more of an issue in the middle of the year… sub-prime mortgage will still be a risk… more defaults may be seen around May…. the stock may reach new lows around May to July period. The economy in the second half of the year depends on the spread of the recession. A recession is likely to occur… If the possible recession is limited to US, which means China, India and most part of Europe will still have mild growth, the US economy will go out of this dip close year end, or beginning of 2009. Bush’s 150B dollar tax rebate may see some effect in consumer spending around year end. If the recession is more wide spread… assuming the other countries will have a delay of a quarter to half a year… the economy won’t make turn until the second half of next year… overall, this recession may be just a light one… it’s impact to semiconductor industry may be mild to moderate… however, even after the recession, the US economy may not enjoy the same growth as the past few years… as the internal issues of the economy cannot be overshadowed and thus post a greater threat…

January 22, 2008

Googlepedia…

Filed under: Freestyle — Fei @ 8:55 pm

Preamble: wrote this article a while ago… so it is not “news” any more…

Google just launched its googlepedia to compete with wikipedia… what is googlepedia? It is just like wikipedia with several notable differences: 1st, article authors are identified; 2nd, articles cannot be modified by others; 3rd, authors may make money out of their articles….

What a stupid idea… I first thought… the sale point of wikipedia is its impartial opinions…. and impartial opinions are due to anonymous contributions of the entire community… and now… how can the googlepedia ensure impartiality? obviously the articles will be biased… right?

However, at a second thought… I totally changed my mind… what a brilliant idea…

Wikipedia has its own problems, first of all… An article may be modified by parties of interests anonymously… though some technology can detect such actions, it only solves the problem from the surface…. Also, why people contribute? people want to spread the words… that’s the only reason for people to write to wikipedia… coz it’s anonymous… there are two other causes to write… be famous… and be rich… it’s a real, practical fact… unfortunately, wikipedia cannot use either of them… also because it’s anonymous… some wiki-like websites enforce named contributions… without much success… coz they only increase author’s responsibility… but not author’s motivation…

On the other hand… googlepedia can somewhat do better… people can still spread the words… names undersigned…. have more responsibility… and potentially can be more famous… and be richer… be impartial? well…. other people can comment on the articles… maybe that can partially solve the problem…

googlepedia is actually more similar to books…. both are named, both cannot be modified by other people… and both collect loyalty (kind of)… In that sense, google actually simplifies the procedure to publish books… simplifies the work of writing a book… coz even an article can be published… though it doesn’t come with a physical paper back… who reads books these days anyway?

google starts with some less conflicting areas such as science and technology… and invites some relatively well known people to write the articles… a great start move… let’s see how it works out…

January 13, 2008

What a brilliant strategy

Filed under: Freestyle — Fei @ 10:28 pm

Some time ago, I made a connection at Los Angeles airport, having only two hours to catch the next flight with another airline at this foreign airport… Even though I checked the floor plan in advance, I felt quite nervous. Fortunately, my plane arrived on time.. so I rushed out of terminal 4 with my carry-ons, figuring out the way to terminal 2. That was quite a bit of walk… needed to cross half of the terminals… well… far it was… I had to start my first step…

When I walked half way there, I wanted to take a break… so I was kind of distracted, looking for a place to sit down… just at that moment, a voice came to my ears: do you have a question? I followed the sound, a man standing at the edge of the side walk, looking at me. Well, that’s really nice, I thought. Even though I knew my destination, it didn’t hurt to ask again… so I asked him the question, again. His answer confirmed my information. So I thanked him, started walking again. But he asked me at my back: may I just ask you one more question, just one more? Yeah, sure… he just helped me… I noticed that he held a folder in his hand, and he opened it towards me. well.. it was a flyer asking for donation. Would you donate some Christmas gifts for the children? damn… I was ambushed… I told myself… it was a trap from the very beginning… but at that time… what could I say? I gave him some cash even though it was against my rule: never donate in the street, because you never know whether the money will go to the right place.

Later I figured that the person was really smart… and the donation collection strategy was great…

No. 1, position, position, position. It is the number one rule in sales. He chooses airport, a place with a large throughput. He can meet lots of different people… at the same place… in a short time….

No. 2, strategy: if you want to get, you need to give first. He doesn’t ask for donation at first. In fact, at first sight no one can tell his real intention. Instead, he asks: do you have a question? It seems that he is a nice person offering to help (and he indeed is). It again goes back to rule No. 1, the position. At airport, lots of people are from other cities, or other countries. Many of them are not familiar with the place and in deed need help from locals. He first offers his help to other people, making them feel obliged to give something back in return. And then, he goes directly to rule No. 3.

No. 3, get to the point. After he offers help, he asks: can I ask one more question? Just one question, and that question directly ask for donation… no reasoning, no description… just ask for money… Most people will stop when he shows his intent to ask a question… because he has already offered help and the receiver would like to give something back… Remember, the receiver is in the mood of giving something back… so he catches the chance and ask for donation immediately… doesn’t give the other person a chance to jump out of the mood. Also, most people at the airport are in a hurry to catch planes. Nobody has the time to listen to long stories… the longer it takes the less the people is likely to give… it’s another reason to get to the point.

This strategy plays much better than the money for information trade… it is indeed very smart…

January 8, 2008

扬州小吃之孙氏排行榜

Filed under: 往事如风 — Fei @ 8:12 am

扬州小吃五花八门,我也有自己的喜好。其实那些小吃都吃了那么多年了,要说味道有多鲜美,也不竟然。这更多的只是我对儿时生活的美好回忆。。。

1. 扬州大煮干丝。这是扬州的一道名菜。干丝都是嫩嫩的,比美国那嚼不动的干丝强多了。里面配料很多,有小小的虾仁(比美国的salad shrimp还要小),新鲜的笋片,小菠菜,嫩鸡丝,等等。最主要的是,干丝要放在小鸡汤里煮,别的汤都不行。扬州菜做工精细,出了扬州就找不到了。我在美国还没有看见一家淮扬菜系的餐馆,可能和人工贵有关系吧。这道菜排名第一,主要是这菜以前很贵,买不起,就老是馋馋地想着它。

2. 油炸豆腐干。这是我在扬州经常吃的一个小吃。豆腐干要放在油锅里炸,等到豆腐干里炸得充满了气,鼓鼓的,就夹出来晾干。等到凉了以后要再放到油锅里回锅。这很重要,回锅的豆腐干才好吃。再次夹出来的时候豆腐干就不鼓了。这时候就把它剪成小块,加上作料,就好了。热热地吃最好。记得小时候经常买了吃,主要是便宜,七分钱一块。虽然只有七分钱,我也只有钱买一块。那买一块就不能剪成小块了,只能把豆腐干剪一个角,把作料灌到豆腐干的肚子里,再把豆腐干和剪下来的一小块一起给我。我就用手拿着豆腐干,先吸里面的作料,再一小口一小口的吃。那作料其实也就是兑了水的酱油。现在油炸豆腐干涨到了三毛钱一块(看来豆腐干还是很抗通货膨胀的,只涨了四倍),作料也丰富了。我也有钱买很多了,一买就是十块,虽然还是很好吃。。。可就是感觉不如买一块时的豆腐干了。。。其实这油炸豆腐干很不健康的,首先是油炸的,还不知道这用的是什么油,估计是什么地沟油 🙁 我也想过自己做,可豆腐干怎么炸都不鼓,只好作罢。。。

3.鸭血粉丝。这全名应该是镇江鸭血粉丝,不过我都是在扬州吃的,就把镇江两个字给省略了。鸭血粉丝,里面自然有鸭血,可我对鸭血不怎么感兴趣,主要是其他东西味道很好。记得小时候在离家不远处有一个新华书店,冬天里每天晚上在书店门口有一个游动的鸭血粉丝的小摊子。那时候每天晚上九点多钟爸爸就骑车带我到那小摊子去吃粉丝。粉丝五毛钱一碗,很是好吃。粉丝是山药粉丝,里面有两个半块豆腐干,两个小鹌鹑蛋,一点黄豆芽,绿叶菜,海带,鸭血,两片切得极薄的牛肉片。冬天里吃上这一碗热腾腾的粉丝,很是舒服。我叫爸爸一起吃,可爸爸觉得太贵,就看着我一个人吃 🙁 。。。后来也吃过很多粉丝,也自己做过粉丝,放了很多好吃的东西,也很喜欢吃,可就感觉比那时的粉丝差了些。在扬州正规店也买不到这种粉丝了。。。虽然在地摊上有时还看得见,可总觉得不是很卫生。。。就错过了。。

4.豆腐花。豆腐花就是极嫩的豆腐。做豆腐花最重要的是水要软,不能太硬。这样做出来的豆腐花才能入口就化,没有一点粗糙的感觉。作料其实很简单,加一些盐,榨菜粒,一些葱花,不能放酱油。以前在扬州小摊上吃的就是就是这样。后来到了北京,吃什么北京的豆腐脑,发觉比豆腐还硬,放了酱油和一些黏糊糊的东西,一点也没有清淡爽口的感觉。在普林斯顿就没有吃过豆腐花了。到了加州后到处找豆腐花。可能是加州水太硬,做出来的豆腐花都糙糙的。虽然如此,我还是一次次找那失望的感觉。。。

5.盐水虾,油炸虾和水晶虾仁。我很喜欢吃虾,什么样的虾都好。最喜欢的是一种小河虾,很小,可以很容易用牙齿剥皮,大一点的虾反而不好了。虾其实怎么做都无所谓,小时吃得多的是盐水虾和油炸虾。虾要新鲜的活虾,这样虾肉才紧。死了的虾或快死的虾肉都是散的,就不好吃了。早先虾仁超贵,买不起。自己曾经买虾来挤虾仁,一斤虾才能挤出二两虾仁,才明白虾仁为什么那么贵了。后来虾仁便宜了,吃起来更简单,都不需要剥皮了,用勺子舀,一勺可以吃很多个。可吃起来简单,反而没有要剥皮的韵味了。。。

6.烫干丝。顾名思义,烫干丝就是热干丝加一些水。作料就是少许酱油麻油,最多加一些小虾米,上面放一片香菜做摆设。同煮干丝一样,干丝要嫩,而且显得更重要了。因为没有其他的配料了。。。

7.硝(肴)肉。硝肉全名也是镇江硝肉。我把镇江两字去掉,理由同上。很喜欢硝肉的味道,沾着醋吃更好。样子也是水晶剔透的。小时候婆婆还做硝肉,用的就是硝。后来听说硝有毒,就不用了,可味道总觉得差了一点。小时候硝肉也就是偶尔吃,婆婆生病后吃的次数就更少了。。。

8.油墩子。 油墩子也是油炸的。用一个铁勺子,上面糊上一些面粉,再放进萝卜丝或韭菜丝做馅,上面再糊一层面粉封上。放到油锅里炸成金黄色,就好了。小时候油墩子和油炸豆腐干是在一起卖的。豆腐干卖七分钱,油墩子卖一毛钱。后来不知怎么的,那些摊子只卖油炸豆腐干了。。。所以我吃油墩子的时间也不长,就排最后一名吧。

9.扬州包子。我其实并不喜欢下面三道扬州菜,不过它们挺有名的,就一并写出来吧。扬州包子是很出名的。很小巧,花样又多。我在扬州之外就没有吃过这么好吃的包子了。不过我从小不爱吃包子,就一直没有注意。。。直到我在外地吃了极其难吃的包子。。。现在对吃包子不怎么反感了。。。不过总体而言,也还不能说是喜欢吃。。。

10.扬州炒饭。扬州炒饭算是名声在外。说是扬州把扬州炒饭注册成了商标,别的地方就不能用扬州炒饭的名称了。就算在扬州,也只有三个地方可以用扬州炒饭的名称。别的饭店只能用扬州蛋炒饭作为名字了。其实注册商标也情有可原,扬州炒饭有二十多种原料,不同的餐馆用料不一样,把扬州炒饭的名声都败坏了,标准化一把也不是什么坏事。我以前不太喜欢吃扬州炒饭,觉得太油。现在吃扬州蛋炒饭也觉得不太精致,可能和不地道有关系。在扬州都吃不到扬州炒饭,更不用说在外地了。扬州没有在美国注册商标,美国的中餐馆还在用这个名字,不过做出来的饭我看了都想吐。。。。你们就别想吃正宗的扬州炒饭了。。。

11.粉蒸狮子头。首先声明,我从来不吃狮子头的,不过看看很多人对这菜有误解,我就说两句吧。很多人认为狮子头就是大肉团子,这是一个很大的误解。狮子头很像肉丸子,但其用料除了肉末之外还有好几种其他的原料,吃起来也比肉丸子更油,但肥而不腻。我从来不吃,也不记得是什么味道。不过外面餐馆把什么肉团子都称作狮子头,败坏扬州菜的名声,特此声明一下。

December 27, 2007

围棋趣事

Filed under: 往事如风 — Fei @ 6:05 am

说起围棋,我还遇到一件很有趣的事。那时我在Princeton,围棋协会的头是我的一个朋友。有一次围棋协会举办一个丰云和棋友对弈的活动。丰云是中国第一个女九段。我第一次在电视上见到她时她还是中国国家队队员,谁想到几年之后她已经在New Brunswick开了一个围棋学校。来Princeton也是看看能不能也办个班。丰云来Princeton,我自然要去见识见识。就早早地到了International Center。丰云和一圈人下棋,丰云执白,其他人执黑,丰云是又让先又让子。丰云和一人下完一手后就和下一个人下,而那人就有丰云下一圈人的时间去考虑下一手棋。一般来说,丰云和这些业余选手下棋每手也就考虑两三秒钟,有时还要等对手想棋。而像我这样业余的业余选手也就是站在旁边看看热闹。。。

那些下棋的业余选手中有一个人叫Philip Warren Anderson,是Princeton物理系教授,1977年若贝尔奖获得者。这老头挺有意思的,喜欢下围棋。那次我正好站在Anderson旁边,他的一举一动都在我的眼底。Anderson和丰云有一块棋在对杀,眼看黑棋不行了。这时丰云下了一手,就转到和下一个人对弈了。Anderson看着棋盘,犹犹豫豫地下了一手,随即又后悔了,把棋子拿了起来。。。谁知他没有拿起刚刚放下的那颗棋子,而是那粒棋子旁边的一颗棋子。。。这个小小的错误导致了形势完全不同了,白棋被无缘无故的紧了一口气。我和其他几个观望的人都在旁边睁大了眼睛,互相看着,可就是不敢出声。不一会丰云转了回来,我就仔细地看她的表情。只见她拿了粒白子就想往下放,可放到一半又收了回来,眉头稍微皱了皱,也没出声。我当时就觉得她看出来不对了。她站在那儿静思了二十几秒钟,下了一手,就静静地转身了。这样又下了几手,原来应该黑棋死的棋变成了白棋死了。Anderson指了指那死了的白棋,很得意地看了看丰云。丰云也指了指利用那死了的白棋构筑的外势,意思是那是一个转换。一切竟在不言中。

不一会,Anderson和丰云又有一块棋对杀。Anderson指了指他的黑棋,很confident的说:一,二,三,四,我有四口气。丰云也不甘示弱,数着白棋的气:一,二,三,四,我也有四口气。然后顿了顿,说:现在是我走。。。 🙂 Anderson实在是太可爱了。。。

后来CCTV来Princeton拍纪录片,我随口讲了这个故事,他们觉得挺好,要放到片子里。可我们觉得这样有损Anderson的光辉形象,就扣了下来。

再后来那位围棋协会的掌门人毕业了,就把围棋协会officer的职位禅让给我另外两个朋友。可这俩人都不会下围棋,也对下围棋不感兴趣。。。整个协会就衰落下来。。。现在这俩人也毕业了,不知道围棋协会现在怎么样了。。。

话说围棋

Filed under: 往事如风 — Fei @ 6:00 am

第一次接触围棋是十多年前的事了。那时中央电视台开了一个围棋的节目。当时看了看,觉得围棋很神奇,比象棋,国际象棋什么的有意思多了。就稍微了解了一些。那时印象最深的就是那些围棋讲解员了,什么华以刚、刘小光、徐莹的。只记得刚见到徐莹时她还挺丰硕。她和一些高手一起讲棋时经常被高手批。。。谁知一两年后她突然变苗条了,觉得很诧异。这次再在电视上看见她。。。没觉得有什么变化,就是不和高手一起讲棋了,要么是给四五岁的小孩教棋,要么找个赞助商一起讲棋。。。棋还是讲得很差。。不过她也从当时的三段升为五段了。。。看来棋力还是长了。。。

我呢?也就是看看围棋讲解的份。自己什么也想不出来。。。不过这次看围棋感觉已经和老早以前很不一样了。。难道这是经历不同了吗?

December 13, 2007

纪念南京大屠杀,及由此而想到的。。。

Filed under: Freestyle — Fei @ 1:22 am

1937年12月13日,南京沦陷,国民政府迁都武汉。日军在南京进行长达数月之久惨绝人寰的屠杀、奸淫、掠夺、放火。其间具体遇难的人数已不可考。坐落于南京的南京大屠杀纪念馆外赫然刻着“遇难者三十万”,可为参考。

今天,2007年12月13日,大屠杀已整整过去70年了,当年屠杀的幸存者及制造者多半早已作古。今天,屠杀幸存者直接或间接的后代们对此事有何感想呢?今天,我们“一衣带水的友好邻邦”对此事又有何感想呢?今天,世界其他地区对此事有无感想呢?很简单。我们只需看看电视,听听广播,上上网,答案便一目了然了。如果我们进一步问问自己,在一百年后、两百年后的世界里,人们对此又有何感想呢?可有人知道?

我们可能并不能活在那时的世界里,对此事有个确切地观察。可我们可以问问自己对世界上其他一些事件的看法,开动开动脑筋,便能有一个大致的估计了。

秦始皇墓可以说是中国历史上最宏伟,最壮观的陵墓了。其建造过程也可以说是最血腥,最残酷的。相传秦始皇墓动用了72万人38年时间,也只是部分完工。其殉葬的人数以万计,包括建筑工匠、王宫嫔妃、甚至王侯将相,这种规模可谓无人能右。这是国家有计划、有组织的屠杀。秦始皇已作古两千余年。大家在谈到他的时候,这件事能排第几呢?

成吉思汗也开创了一代帝国:元朝。虽然只有短短几十年,但其疆土的辽阔却是旷古未有的。中国人对这段历史有一种矛盾的情感。一方面,汉族被蒙古族人统治着,有一种亡国的悲凉。另一方面,元朝定都于现在的北京,作为中国的代言人,控制着广阔的疆域。而当时的蒙古人也成了中国人的一支,各位有没有一丝暗喜呢?抛开这些不说,成吉思汗西征时却也是及其残酷的,城池如被攻下,即被屠城,妇孺不留。这在金庸的“射雕英雄传”中可略见一斑。就是现在,西域的一些国家对此还是有所畏惧的。而成吉思汗的基因也成了世上传播最广的基因。我们对成吉思汗的认识是不是只识弯弓射大雕的天骄呢?

屠城的暴行满清也有染指。大家听到“扬州十日,嘉定三屠”时是不是首先想到韦小宝呢?是喜?是悲?还是无所谓呢?

南京大屠杀也被称为南京事件,Nanking Massacre,Rape of Nanking。对此我就不多说了。

二战时德国对犹太人实行了种族大屠杀,有说将近六百万犹太人惨遭杀害。由于西方传媒对此宣传很多,西方人了解的也较多。我们为什么会对此有所知呢?是热衷于西方文化吗?

二战的末期日本也尝到了被屠杀的痛楚。广岛和长崎成了日本永远的痛。几十万人在瞬间灰飞烟灭了,也许这样走会没有什么痛苦,也许。这是报应吗?这是他们应得的吗?

社会主义文化大革命是什么呢?

1994年,一百万人在短短三个月内被屠杀,是南京大屠杀的三倍。发生的地点却是长期被人遗忘的黑非洲:卢旺达。我们对此了解多少呢?一百万是一个数字吗?
紧接而来的是1998年的印尼反华人大屠杀。the first thing coming to your mind… is… what?

然后是911以及反恐战争。 有人说,当世界其他地方的人看见双子塔倒下的时候是兴奋,这是美国的悲哀。我说,这是美国的悲哀,也是世界的悲哀。。。

生活在其他地区、其他时间的人对南京事件有何看法呢?这正是我们对秦始皇、成吉思汗、扬州、嘉定、奥斯维辛、广岛和长崎、文化大革命、卢旺达、印尼反华、911 etc.的看法。

One million, is a number; three hundred thousand, is a number; three thousand, is also a number; and one, is still a number. But does number matter?

Recently, the US House passed a resolution urging the Japanese government to formally apologize for the wrong doings of the “comfort women” in WW II. Yes, it is the right thing to do… we can say that because we know our history… More recently, the US House committee voted to call the mass killing of Americans in Turkey in WW I as an act of genocide, almost one century after the killing. Is the purpose of the bill really to reveal that forgotten history? Or is it just a result of the dynamics of domestic politics? Can we nod our head and say: yes, it is the right thing to do, with the same confidence? If we can’t, can we expect other people view the “Nanking affair” from the same angle as we do?

I cannot list all the holocausts in history. Frankly, I only know a small portion… but same is for everyone else in the world… they may just happen not knowing the rape of Nanking. How is Nanking any different from Auschwitz, Yangzhou, Jiading, Hiroshima, Nagasaki, Rwanda, Indonesia, New York, Iraq, and many other places in the world? In some sense, maybe it is not. Maybe we need to know what happened, learn the lesson, and focus on the future.

Don’t make me wrong, we have to remember the history, if we don’t, no one else will… we have to remember our history, because there are people in the world only remembering their own history… but simply remembering “our” history is not enough… if we do, everyone else will follow… You may say, we have to do this, it is how the cards are played right now… yes, it is the current situation… but are the cards played under the right rules? for the right purpose?

Hatred, hatred, hatred… but hatred alone does not solve any problem… and do we hate the right target? For this, I like what the Japanese American said in the panel discussion at Stanford a month ago: it doesn’t matter whether it’s Japanese or German, it’s war, it’s war that make people lose themselves. it’s war that make people inhumane. it’s war that make people insane.

and it is war…

November 2, 2007

Iris Chang

Filed under: Freestyle — Fei @ 12:20 am

I went to a panel discussion on Nanking Massacre at Stanford today, Room 370, Bldg 370. When I got there, I was surprised to find out that the room was quite small. Less than a hundred people sat through the discussion. What happened? Is this the difference between the east coast and west coast? Frankly speaking, the discussion was still enlightening… I just wished to hear opinions from both sides, debates of some kind… but only found out its education purpose… what’s the purpose of a panel if everyone thinks the same?

It was the first time I saw Iris Chang’s parents, describing their daughter’s story on the best seller book “Rape of Nanking”. They must have talked the same story to people over and over again…

Talking about Iris Chang, I recall the first time I saw her. It was in late April, 2003, at Princeton University, the closing event for APAHM. APAHM means Asian Pacific American Heritage Month, in case you don’t know. At that time I had no idea who Iris was, but a friend dragged me there. The place was McCosh 50, the biggest classroom on campus, seating 500 people. Big the room was, it was packed, literally packed. Iris went to Princeton to promote her new book, “The Chinese in America: A Narrative History”. She did not mention Nanking during her speech at all. However, all questions from the audience were about Nanking… How popular the book was? That raised my interest… Later I talked to Paula and other people, and found out how significant the book was… The book was the first one to educate Americans on that piece of history. It was the best seller in New York times when it was first out in 1997. I kept an eye on her after the event… only sadly found out her suicide one year later…

Well, it’s 70th anniversary of Nanking Massacre… it’s time to think about it again… I actually wrote something last year, but never finished… maybe it’s time to complete my assignment…

October 29, 2007

Filed under: 往事如风 — Fei @ 12:01 am

我昨天晚上做了一个很长的梦。梦到了很多细节,好像亲身经历的一样。觉得这件事很奇。不过醒来之后很多细节都忘记了,只记得一些梗概。就把这梗概写下来吧,省得以后都忘了。。。

那是我从普林斯顿毕业以后被耶鲁的研究生院录取了,就前去报道。不过我去的地方不是New Haven的总部,而是西域的一个分部。那时已经是初冬,耶鲁的研究生院在一座很高的山的山脚(凌霄山?),外面已经下了小雪。我老远就看见耶鲁那石头垒成的四四方方的口字型楼。楼有三、四层高。在口字的一角,有一个凹进去的门和楼梯。外面挂着一幅耶鲁一个college的盾牌招牌。这座楼是耶鲁的一个college。这楼的后面还有几座类似的楼。楼的前面有一道栅栏,把里面的楼都围起来,好像一个山寨一样。我看看好像是要去这栋楼,就把我大大小小的行李都搬了进去。那时还不知道住在哪儿,就把行李放在走廊里,自己去办手续。楼里面暖气很足,我也就穿着一件T-shirt,在楼里到处跑。有一次排队的时候看见前面那人是位年纪很大的妇人,就和她聊了起来。发现她是耶鲁董事局的副董事长(梦中如此),而且也认识我的host family。就一起伤心了一阵。之后她跟我说可以晚上一起吃晚饭,就道别各做各事了。之间又和她碰到几次,但都不记得说了些啥了。那时我在嘀咕耶鲁的效率怎么这么慢,都几个小时了,我还不知道要住在哪儿。转眼就到晚上了,就和那妇人在dining hall一个很优雅的地方一起用餐。餐中我向她抱怨到手续没办完,不知道什么地方住。她到很爽快,说她会打声招呼,会有人帮我的。吃完饭后我就回到我放行李的走廊,闲逛了一会。就发现有几个长得很高,很粗壮的人向我奔来。其中一个人问我的名字,我就告诉了他,心里想,这关系还真有用,一下子来了好几个人。谁知其他人扛起我的行李就往外面跑。我急了,忙问他们干什么。他们反问,你不是要到你住的地方吗?我答道,是呀。他们说,这就对了,你学的专业和你住的地方不是这儿,是一个叫cupertino的地方,离这儿开车90分钟。他们就把我的行李往楼外一个很小的车上扔,那车比美国的车小很多,和欧洲的小车类似。然后他们上了车向我招手(也不知这小车怎么坐的下那么多人的)。我听他们一说才想起当时申请的时候看到说耶鲁在cupertino有一个分校的分校,旁边有一幅图,那是一个很小的两层楼的系,房子也不是石头的,感觉很孤零零的样子。当时只瞟了一眼,一点也没有在意,可没想到自己竟真的被分配到那儿去了。我真是怨恨交加,大声叫道:I don’t want to go to Cupertino。我要知道要去那儿就不申请了。。。

这一叫就把我给叫醒了。。。醒来之后好久我还想自己有没有真的去了耶鲁的那研究生院。。。

October 28, 2007

Lust, like, love, and life

Filed under: Toast Master — Fei @ 1:07 am

In a toastmaster meeting a few days ago, the table topic master asked the following question: do you believe in falling in love at first sight? A toastmaster veteran gave a very interesting impromptu speech. Here I just try to remember it as precise as possible…

Love is a four letter word: l, o, v, e, but it’s not that simple. A few other four letter words also start with L, and we need to pay attention to. One is lust; one is like; one is love; and one is life. They represent different stages of emotions. When you talk about falling in love at first glance, that is probably just lust. As some of you have said, it is some chemistry inside your body. When you know that person a little bit more, you may like, very like that person. If you go one step further, you may fall in love. And if you are fortunate enough, you may have a life.

Everyone of you have at least gone through some of the stages. I, was fortunate enough to experience a few of the stages: lust, like, love. Unfortunately, I have not yet experienced the stage of life. But I’m still young, I still have chance. And I’m waiting for my moments to come.

(and she’s in her 60s or 70s…)

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